Friday, October 28, 2011

First week is over

Bryan finished his first week of chemo and radiation.  1 down 4 more to go.  For the most part he is doing very well.  The biggest problem is the fatigue.  He tires really easy and feels over whelmed with large tasks.  The pain gets to him sometimes and he took  his first pain pills last night.  Although he said they didn't help very much.  We are keeping him away from all the flu that seems to be going around.  We don't want him to get sick.  He still has his hair and hasn't lost any weight so we are in good shape.  He laughs at jokes about himself and gives the techs and doctors a hard time.  Some times he reminds me of my dad when he was in the hospital.  He is very pleasant and doesn't get as impatient as I do with the process.  He always makes the staff laugh and  has a great attitude.  He is working hard at making in roads at getting the branding business for the clinics and doctors.  He has to pay for all this some how.  He took the doctors shirts and a wireless mouse with In the Paints logo on it.  Every visit he talks to someone about business while he is at his visits. 

As for me, I have been very blessed with added strength and peace to do the work that I need to do. I really feel all of the prayer that have been offered up in our behalf.   I feel very torn sometimes though.  Should I be working so much?  I miss some of the doctors appointments and feel like I am not helping Bryan like I would like.  I need to help him with his job and I can't until late in the evening because I am up gone to work by 6 and don't get home until after 6.  That is hard on him.  What is the answer?  I don't know for sure, but I hope the Lord knows  my heart and will help pick up the pieces that I can't take care of.  Our kids have been amazing!  I'm sure I am some what bias, but we have the best kids in the world.  And the grand kids are even better than the kids.  I can't believe we are blessed enough to have 9 perfect grand kids.

2 comments:

Andrea said...

So sorry you're feeling so torn. I'm sure it's so difficult to have to be away from him so much and missing dr's appts. I have been to most of Gracie's but on occasion when i have been sick and/or had Tyson I just sat at home worrying like a little wort that I couldn't be there and wondering what the Dr's were saying and how she was doing. The pace you're keeping is amazing with so much work and being gone so much yet I'm sure you are still a fabulous support to Bryan and your family. I'm sure Todd can relate well with being gone for Dr's appts and away all day and I know it can be very tough for him. He's always waiting and wondering while he's at his sites what her counts are and how things are going. I wish I could just give you a magical 6 months off work. But as it is I supposed we grow the most when life is the most difficult. But sometimes it "hurts abominably" to quote C.S. Lewis. Hope you don't have quite as many hours and many many blessings next week. Love you guys!

Lori said...

May I just say you two are amazing! The Lord will help you through this, and help comes in many different forms. You truly are blessed with wonderful children and grandchildren. That in itself is truly a blessing. If there is anything at all that I could do please don't hesitate to let me know. Love you.