The Lords plan!

The time flies by while standing still.  It feels like years since we heard the words you have cancer.  People say there is life after cancer and I believe there is, but ours lives have changed and they will never be the same.

You ask how has it changed?  You never think it can happen to you.  You never think you will hear the words. Life seems more precious and people seem to be more caring.  Where have I been when other people are hurting.  I haven't been the kind of friends others have been to us.  Food brought in, neighbors stop by to see how you are doing, people constantly tell us that they are praying for us and putting on names in the temple.  And wanting to help.  But for Bryan and I, there has also been a new found peace.  A peace that says, it doesn't matter what doctor your go to, or what hospital you go to, or how many prayers are offered in our behalf or how much fasting is done, the Lord is in control.  He has a plan. He has things we need to learn.  His time frame is at hand and he is in control.  We can fight it, but that only makes things harder.  Don't read into this that we have given up, because we haven't and in fact, we both feel that everything will be positive and there will be life after cancer, but we are more willing to listen, and more willing to see his will though all of this.  We still have a lot of life to live, but hopefully it will be more in the Lords plan and not so much in our plans.

It's interesting that last Christmas, we did pictures and pillows for family and friends that said "Be Still and know that I am God"  Just 11 months ago, we thought we knew what that meant.  But we didn't.  My fear is that I still don't know what that means.

But in the mean time, we are going to be grateful for our blessings.  We have so many.  This Thanksgiving we will love deeper and enjoy greater than we ever have before.

We are grateful for cancer, it has given us a new perceptive on life.  Thank you Lord for helping us see clearer and put our lives in your hands.  Please take care of us.

The Lord has sent many tender mercies to us over the past 3 months. He has listened to prayers and answered some of them, he has taught us many lessons.  Lessons we never want to forget.